Umbilicus – 1985
You long to feel the purity of life
bereft of man’s possessive greed
and live in peace as God intended
or so you say.
Is this your truth or nostalgia of youth
clinging from distant Scottish slums
where promises of purity and peace
hid reality’s repulsiveness.
Purity seemed absent when
ideals of my youth were crushed
under the weight of your pragmatism
your fear infused with bitterness.
I seek not the role of critic
but fear hypocrisy
an umbilical cord I drag
attached afraid to cut.
Afraid of absence
I had choices I know
life robbed you of yours
wars, pandemics, depression.
Pig-in-the-middle
young carer for grieving mother
younger siblings, absent father
let go what's past.
Won't you share your imperfections
accept mine
open your soul
I have a need to see.
Same blood, same sex
shared love
for all that
friendship absent.
A friend who shares
with joys and triumphs
losses, failures
pain.
I too would shed
the bindings of society
as years go by
the snare grows tighter.
No more excuses
I must decide and soon
I have two sons
our legacy who pray.
Will feel the purity of life
bereft of man’s possessive greed
and live
as God intended.